Attention: RANTING ahead

Alfred was supposed to take me to the market today. I wanted to look for materials for a project I want to work on, including materials to make my own glass bead magnets. It didn't happen.

One of my former agents who happens to be his drinking buddy rendered his last day at work last night and so they and a bunch of other guys went out for booze after shift. I understand that and all, but he was the one who promised we'd go today. And it isn't as if he'd have time tomorrow either. He has a family thing to go to since his brother's leaving to work abroad in a few days. I wouldn't bet on Monday either.

Sometimes even when I feel like ranting about things like this (him not following through on something) I want to kick myself in the butt. After all, I don't have to let him ruin my plans. I should be capable of going my own way if I really have to. I mean, he doesn't always have to be around to escort me. There are also several other people I can ask to go with on outings like what I had intended earlier.

But, he's the only one I feel comfortable with for what I had planned out for today. I'm out on a specific mission and I would need his input.

Still. It's not as if I couldn't do it on my own.

I hate that I'm not really as independent as I believe myself to me. It's like I'm all talk, but when it comes right down to it, I can't do it. I can't do anything.

That's it. Whether anyone's going with me or not, I will go out tomorrow.

Okay, I won't exactly be going to Divisoria or Binondo on my own, but I will go somewhere else that I can navigate on my own.